First of all, I want to say thank you to all the people still taking a peek at my website. I looked at my stats and they are high considering I've barely blogged in two months.
Second, I want to say hello from Chicago! I have finally made it so I can start my time in graduate school. I have been so busy with prep for the move and then the actual move. I am exhausted! I should be reading for class (starts on Tuesday, September 2!), but I had to take a moment to do something I love - writing on here.
I am feeling so many things right now. It's quiet. Very quiet. I have to manage my own kitchen now. I don't have anyone to run to if the stress level is high. I have people who have disappointed me and ones who have marvelously stepped up to the plate in my life. My head is spinning.
I am now trying to encourage myself to step outside for the first time by myself. To take the CTA by myself. To go buy some small empty bottles for my fabric softener from Dollar Tree by myself. To be by myself. It's weird because my first week was filled with action and running around. Now it's just quiet. I've said that already haven't I?
It's weird because I am trying not to bother people. I know that they have certain feelings about my move and so forth. But at the same time, I'm the one who has left their job, family, friends, and more to move to another state by myself and I am scared about how I am going to do in school and money issues. I'm the one doing a lot here. Others can go be with their family, other friends, have a million and one distractions.
I am here in my quiet apartment with only class to break things a part.
This post wasn't suppose to go this route, but being a brave new girl means saying how you feel. AND I FEEL FRUSTRATED!
But I also feel excited. It's starting, this adventure to bring my ideas to fruition. No one said it was going to be easy, that's for sure.
For now I am signing off. When my head is a little more straight, you will get more so much more.
Till next time,